Christianity is the only thing stopping me (M16) from killing animals.
I genuinely want to capture animals, from smaller ones all the way to common household pets, and kill them. My mother is a devout Christian and I guess you could say that I was exposed to Christianity from the very beginning. My father left before I was born but regardless of this fact, I grew up in an extremely stable environment.

Back to the topic at hand, I have very strong urges to capture animals and instead of killing them straight away, I'm not going to sugercoat this in any way but I would love to torture them before ending it. I've had these urges since I was 12 or possibly 13 years of age.

Since Christianity has been a part of my life, albeit somewhat forced, the only thing stopping me from carrying out my internal desire is the fear of sinning in the very back of my mind. I should also mention I feel very little remorse. If it wasn't for that single thought, I would've already begun doing the things I've stated above.

Honestly, I feel it's kind of unfair that I can't do these things to animals due to law, religion and the moral standards of people.